I started my day with a foul mood. Today is Saturday and I usually go rowing early in the morning. Today, I didn’t hear my alarm and went from opening my eyes to full panic mode in the blink of an eye (literally) – the kind of panic where you uselessly spin round and round because the one neuron in your brain that is awake remembers that you have something to do (like hopping into your clothes) but the neurons that actually know what to do are still dead to the world. I still made it in 15 minutes and arrived dishevelled, disconnected and grumpy for the day.
My little corner of the world has been granted a wonderful, sumptuous summer day in the midst of fall and it’s so easy to feel gratitude today that I am now exhaling rainbows, unicorns and heart doodles.
I had already tried the gratitude thing and I never managed to come up with anything but platitudes. Which is all kinds of wrong. I have quite a good life, how is it possible that I can’t find things to be thankful for in my day ?! Oh, I hear you – yes I’m thankful for my loved ones. But what are the little details in my day that make me feel grateful? Blank.
Until today. Today, I’m thankful for :
- the mist over the water and the eery atmosphere in the early morning,
- the shades of red and green in the sunlight,
- the swan who was cleaning his feathers and who was radiating so much warmth that he was surrounded by his own little misty halo,
- the water- so smooth and calm this morning,
- the companionship of friends who went on board with me when I grumbled something about bad mood and not wanting to row alone today,
- today being a Saturday,
- waking up 15 minutes early enough to be able to be there,
My point is that I’ve heard and read discussions about the practice of gratitude but it is only today when it is so easy to feel it that I understood what it takes and what it means.
It’s not about spending my day in automatic mode and then scribbling in my bed a list of things I think I should be grateful for. It’s about being fully present, paying attention to every detail of the picture and catching on to everything that makes me feel so good and alive and lucky that I want to say thank you.
And since every day is not like today, it’s about practising as best as I can until it becomes as natural as it was today. I really hope I’ll get there.
That leads me to conclude with this video that I’d like to share with you. It’s Louie Schwartzberg‘s special TED talk, his gift of :
Nature. Beauty. Gratitude.